life...

why does life seamlessly draw you into multiple issues only to leave you shattered, broken, scarred and confused?

why do we always seem to lose ppl who we cherish so much be it to college, moving away and jst growing distant and apart?

why? why? why?

why do i stay awake for hours hoping for some solution that never comes, why i hurt mentally, physically day by day yet i dnt grow impatient and tired of the feelings, they only reinforce a darker side of me that only rages, screams and cries to the night sky waiting for my life to finally fall into place and for the one who will tame me to hld my hand while i cry out all of my pains to her..

when will i gain some solace or peace of mind again, who will stand w me while a pick up the pieces of my scattered soul.

ughhh.... and the tears fall continuously like rain... Hopes, wishes, fears, desires, secrets, lust, needs, regrets, love things i desire and and need ughhh...

i have dreams, visions of things to come or things i can have in my life if i push hard enough that jst speak so strongly to me that it kills me im not able to touch or hold what it is i want in them...

wrst day, wrst month, wrst year and wrst feeling ever...

ugh why me(cryingg)